"Immediately he spoke to them and said, 'Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.' Then he climbed into the boat with them, and the wind died down. They were completely amazed."
Mark 6:50-51
On my way to work today, I was jamming with my Ipod when I started thinking, which is always a dangerous pursuit. I was thinking about driving to and from class or riding the train, when I'll have to leave work on Mondays to get to class on time, whether I'll enjoy my classes or not, etc. Then I started thinking about whether I can handle full-time class and full-timeish work, whether I'll get bored or lonely on the way to school, whether I'll make friends, whether I'll be able to do it or not.
Then the fear set in. Can I really handle this? AM I intelligent, hard-working, and faithful enough to get a Masters of Divinity? Do I have any idea what I'm doing, or am I making a huge mistake?
I hadn't come up with my Jesus-ified task of the day, but I definitely knew it now. I spent a lot of time in prayer today asking for peace and not fear. I fear a lot of things in my life, including some ridiculous ones. This is definitely a legitimate concern, but I know that God is calling me to be a pastor, and he'll be with me through this whole process.
praying for peace is something we don't do often enough, because when we really need it, we usually forget to ask. but you realizing that and stopping to pray for peace--i feel like that says more than anything that this is exactly where you need to be.
ReplyDeleteand thanks for your blogs! i love ending my day with them :)!
you are the smartest, most amazing person i know, and even though this year might be challenging, i have the utmost confidence that you'll not only be able to see this through, but you'll make the very best of the situation and come out all the better because of it.
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